A lot of things has happened since last update. well, of course i mean the last time i updated was like a eons ago. so gonna update only on important stuffs.

Abby!
Cambodia trip
School
Work

So firstly talk about my darling. So she is now posted into TP Business Course. Leisure and Resort Management. I'm proud of her for doing so well and getting into a good course. I know she can do well in TP despite high rate of failures in that school. Not i'm doubting she cant do well. just that with her environment, she would want to fit in. she cares abit too much on what people think about her. so i dont want her to be influenced wrongly by the wrong people. and i dont really like the idea of her having the bikini but she seem to really like it, i guess i can let this one slide? the thing about it is that guys stare at her(which makes me feel uncomfortable), and she wana be a miss singapore. which exposes herself to the whole nation and become like sex objects so small boys can jerk off by seeing her on FHM. havent really said this but alot of people avoid dating girls who have daddy issues because they those with daddy issues turn out to be strippers, prostitutes etc. something where they get attention from men in all. i hope i am giving her much attention because im giving her my all.


Secondly is the cambodia trip that i will be going to from march 1st to 12th. will be there for a school educational trip. had to pay $395.00 for the whole trip. have to do so many things like training, blood test, payment, language training, etc2. abit of a hassle and fills up my calendar, which is not really good as im trying to get a job so i can get some savings. im 19 and i have no savings! other than the school savings. i guess all will be fine. however still have a debt of $1,700 to be paid for RP's fees. have been cut off from LEO for 2 weeks or 3?

being cut from LEO is a major blow to my will to learn. i cant log in LEO, and i'm ashamed to ask others to pass me the problem statement, worksheet, ppt all through my mum's thumbdrive. i have been waking up late for school. like im immune to all the alarms and wake up calls by my mom. only my dad can do it i guess. but even so, i'll pretend to bathe and go back to sleep till like 11am then head to school. but not to class. so now im facing at the last days of my year 2 in RP. one week of study and 4 UT3 tests. I have to persevere through this.
and next year would be the fyp project. hopefully no big problems will occur during that period.

i think i might got a job at crocs. location at TM. which is very convenient for me from school or home. a 30min bus ride from either side! yes i know the irony. woodlands and tamp compared to bedok and tamp. im really looking forward to working there. i know nothing is confirmed, but yesterday when i went there to apply for a job, they said their system was down and i cant fill in any form(i think they print the form from the internet) so they told me to leave my name and contact number. i mean no one would wait that long for a random person. but im no random person as amirul is somewhat my alibi. he has been working at crocs for almost half a year i think. but he has been working all over the place. like marina, tamp, plaza singapura.

I LOVE YOU BAYBEE!

So, have a new blue cast with no signatures for a week already. it's just so plain and dull blue. need love on the cast. the old white cast is sealed in a plastic zipper, safe for future memories. anyways cant do much. everything with one hand. i miss my left hand. but i miss my pantat more. all is well between us. just in the process of re-adjusting to the new us. i love us.

gonna have this cast till 18th of jan. hopefully no more new casts or i might just die of boredom. i wana gym. i wana swim. i wana do things with two hands. i dont wanna get so many stares, i wouldnt know whats wrong. is it the cast? my zipper? my face? my hair? WHAT?!

the least words are when it is most meaningful.
i love you.
i love us.
i love our future.
i love you.

cause 'i' dont mean anything when ' i'm ' with you.

for the better. for the future. for my family. for love. for you.
i'll change.

this has gone too far. i need to bring it back. i still hope i do want it back in the first place. need more facts.

Just glad it didn't happen.

UT over. Holidays here.

PP
Car License
Job
$$$
Partay
CE points
Fasting
Hari Raya
Paintball!
Soccer
Gym

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